To me our relationship was essentially the most impactful relationship I ever had with a male to date. To me he was abusive and manipulative. To me he took my self esteem and caused me to become very insecure. To me he made my hair fall out and caused me to lose large and unhealthy amounts of weight. For me I battled myself for reasons to allow myself to live. For me I suffered. For me I was broken. I lost so many things. I was never the same. I don’t think I can ever love that way again. I can only love a man from what’s left of the parts of my heart, that aren’t jaded.
Yo I hate when you and a guy have a falling out and you decide to have short break pd bc you “I’m good” him… And y’all start talking again bc ur pretty much over it… and he says something dumb like “naw cause I didn’t even really do anything. I don’t know what I did for real. You was snappin’”. That gets on my one last good nerve. That makes me cock my head back and make a stank face. That makes me give my best side-eye. That makes me feel like I’m good again.